I realized as I was leaving a voice mail for a friend while driving to the local SS office that my heart was pounding a bit harder and my throat was getting tight. I said into the phone - "I am just on my way to apply for Willow's Social Security Card, pretty exciting stuff." (meaning it sarcastically) And then I had to correct myself- "actually it IS really exciting" I said to both the voice mail and to myself.
I had to work hard to contain my emotions as I waited for them to call my number A205, even though I was the only one in the waiting area. When I got to the desk, the clerk asked what she could do for me and I said, "I am here FINALLY to get my little girl her social security card." I then added that I hoped I wouldn't start crying during the process. Poor clerk woman, she looked a bit confused. She probably thought I meant that I was finally getting the application done but what I really meant -- or rather what my head was confirming yet again to my heart- was YES!! I HAVE A DAUGHTER!!
It still amazes and puzzles me that my gratitude has so many layers and how these little, seemingly mundane, ordinary tasks take on so much more meaning to me and to us. There are so many layers and thankfully R. totally gets it too. When I called him he totally understood the big deal that this was and we talked like we always end up talking about what a wonderful little girl we have and how very, very, lucky we are to have found her.
Hugs to ALL!!
M.
P.S. Coming Soon: a good long post about our Holidays and Willow News!!
